Inga Project Week 16

This also sucks. I have been at this for 16 weeks in weight watchers, and I started in March. Since March after COMPLETELY changing my eating habits, and starting an exercise regimen, I have only managed to lose 26 pounds. That is so fucking discouraging it makes me sick. If I didn't want to lose this weight so bad I would just say to hell with it and give up.

Life Sucks....Its also a Cereal

I am so monumentally unhappy right now, words cant even begin to describe it. And I know that I am not the only person in the world with problems, but I really only give a shit about my own...so there.

I am probably either going to get laid off or fired from my job that I hate. I mean I should be super happy about leaving the place that sucks a little bit of my soul every day I walk in the door. My supervisor has been extra special cold to me lately, and she even accidentally (honestly she is a ding bat) sent me an e-mail bitching about me. And now tomorrow I have to have a meeting with her about some alleged "incident".

I am starting school soon, which should feel great because I am doing something with my life, but it just makes me feel stressed. I will not have my current job, because even if they don't fire/lay me off, I will need to quit in about 6 weeks anyway for school. And the classified ads are so very dismal, I have no idea how I will make it work. But the thought of staying at the job I am at now makes me want to swallow a gun.

I don't know what to do, I don't feel like I have many options. I just want the ground to swallow me up whole. So I guess in general for Inga Life sucks.

Inga Project: Week 6

Well in the last couple weeks I have been continuing on with my diet and exercise regimen. I have been gradually working out more, and since I started Weight Watchers I started using a food journal and keeping track of my "points". Last week I had kind of a bad week and went over my points a couple days. Oops.

I have been getting frustrated lately because I have been on this diet since the end of march now, and I have only managed to really loose and keep off about 12 pounds. I missed my Weight Watchers meeting last week because I had a migraine, and when I went this week I was dreading getting on the scale. When I weighed myself at work earlier in the week I saw that I had found the 3 pounds that I had lost the week before. So I was certain that when I hit the scale I would see that after two weeks of work I had lost nothing. But much to my surprise I stepped up on the scale and saw that I had actually lost 4 pounds! So that gave me that extra boost that I needed to keep going.

I have my sister's wedding this weekend so there will be lots of temptation for me to just throw caution to the wind and binge. But I have my work out buddy at the wedding, and she will help keep me in line. So here is to hoping that next Tuesday I will see a loss on the scale.

Inga Project: Week 4

So its been about 4 weeks now since I had my big "aha" moment and decided it was time to finally get my ass up and moving. I have only managed to lose 12 pounds total, which people tell me is good, but I feel like after all the work I have put in over 4 weeks it should be closer to twenty. Oh well.

When I first started working out I was lucky if I could make it 25 minutes on the treadmill, and it was about all I could take to make it five minutes on the bike. Now I walk 2 miles in an hour on the treadmill, and I can go 5 miles in 22 minutes on the bike without getting too tired out. So I guess that's a good improvement. In the last week or so, I am really trying to focus more on getting myself more active. On some of my lunch breaks I go walking with one of the receptionist's at work. Of course I always say I am chasing her, because that bitch is like a size zero and she walks way faster than I do.

Tonight I went to my first Weight Watchers meeting with my friend, and now weight loss partner Lynn. The meeting seemed to go pretty well and I signed up for a month so we will have to stay tuned on that one. So for now I am hoping that I can at least loose a couple more pounds by next week.

The Inga Project

So since I have made the decision to swear off men for awhile, I have decided that I need to take this time to focus on me. And one thing that has been really bothering me, is my fat ass. About 4 weeks ago I was at work and I walked by the scale. Curious to see what my 2 week habit of McDonald's for breakfast every day had done, I stepped on. And but what to my wandering eyes did appear, my weight, 337 pounds. I saw myself creeping to that scary 350 mark, which would certainly lead right down that slippery slope to 400. And it was right there and then that I had my "aha" moment, I am not going to be that heavy, no way.

So I pretty much immediately(ie. the next day) I started on my new diet. No more 2 pieces of pizza at lunch. No more 2 donuts for a snack after lunch. Pretty much no more eating what I wanted to eat. I went straight from work to Wal-Mart and stocked up on weight watchers meals, yogurt, applesauce and crystal light. So starting the next day I tried my hardest to be a good little girl.

So now after 4 weeks of making major changes (and I mean MAJOR for me). I have only managed to lose and keep off about 8 pounds *sigh* I have been exercising at least 3 days a week and eating right. I guess I will have to work myself harder in the work out department because I am totally busting my ass in the eating department. So here is to hoping that the "Inga Project" ends up going well. Stay tuned

To Hell With It

So I have reached the point finally (with a little coaching from Ava) that I decided that I am going to take a break from dating and boys in general for awhile. I am going to just worry about Inga until at least the end of this summer. I have had enough drama in my personal and professional life in the last 12 months that I feel justified in just saying "fuck it". And boys are a major area that A) stresses me out and B) I can just ignore for awhile.

So just for the sake of me whining, I am going to recap on all of my shitty guy situations from the past 12 months. Ehh hem:

1. We will call this one "Jewish Doctor". I met Jewish doctor online a few months after I moved to the "big city". We chatted for a long time online before we finally went on our first date. Sure he was a little nerdy and awkward but he was a nice guy and we had an Ok time. We had a lot in common so I tried to work through his total social awkwardness, and the fact that he drug his feet like he was wearing lead shoes. But then I ended up getting dumped, very suddenly, because he decided that after he lost 100 or so pounds and had recently became a doctor he could do better than me. Great.
2. I met a guy online that I chatted with for awhile and he seemed like he was pretty nice. Thankfully before I agreed to meet him I googled his ass and found out that he had just gotten out of 8 years in prison, for: Drugs, racketeering, and accessory to murder. NEXT!
3. A lonely guy that had just moved to my hometown from Ohio that I met at church. After he found me on match.com he e-mailed me a few times and then he called me. Apparently after a 10 minute phone convo (I promise I was on my BEST behavior) he decided that he would rather just sit at home and stay lonely than spend anytime with me. That's a real confidence booster.
4. Tattoo boy...enough said he got his own blog
5. Perfect Date guy. Even after my long blog and realization that he wasn't into me, I still engaged in random texting (I know I am that stupid and lonely). But now after several weeks and 2 dates, I really am DONE with that shit.

So yeah. The crappy boys and the unfortunate job situation. My baby sister working on her second marriage and me still single. I say that I need some "Inga Time", so I say to hell with it I am just going to do my own thing for awhile.

He's Just Not That Into Me

If you have read the book "He's Just Not That Into You", or even seen the movie then you will know exactly what I am talking about here. This book makes wonderful points that all women should pay attention too. After I went out with "perfect date" he fell off the grid, and even though I don't understand it (I mean Hello the date was awesome) I have come to the conclusion that he is just not that into me. And I will now point out the reason's why, and you should pay attention for these signs with men too.

• He told me to get ahold of him at the end of the date. Pretty explanatory though not obvious at the moment, made sense later. If he was into me, he would do the calling
• The day after the date was his Birthday, I sent him a happy birthday text asking how his day was, and he told me he spent half the day on the crapper. If he was into me, he probably wouldn't have shared that
• I texted him 3 days after the date to say "hi" and I had to bring up going out again (duh Inga) He then said "sounds cool" but when I called him not a minute later he didn't answer the phone. He then texted me back that he was eating and couldn't talk. If he was into me, he would have answered the phone. Eating or not if you like the girl you pick up.
• He then told me that he would call me later to talk about the details. An hour and a half later I got a text, or "text-cuse" as I have coined them, that he had a buddy coming over could he call me later. I mean come on, if he was into me he would have called, for christ sake the friend wasn't even there yet.

The next night, I got a very lame ass "text-cuse" after 10pm. "shit lady, I feel asleep and just woke up, I will call you tomorrow". I don't think I even need to explain at this point. So to maintain my cool the next morning I sent him a short "that will happen, talk to you later" I swear this guy is trying to make me get all pissy and do the dirty work, and I refuse to make it easy.

So the next night, Friday night, I get a text at 10:45, or as I like to think, after he got done doing something better, asking me if I was up yet. I say nothing and 20 minutes later I get "I am sorry, I am being a selfish ass one of my friends came over and I didn't call. I totally understand if you don't answer when I call tomorrow" So a little later I informed him that "I was out with my friends anyway, I will talk to you tomorrow"

Needless to say Saturday came with no phone call, but a text asking me what I was doing that night ( he had no one else to hang with) and I was busy. So after he gave me "maybe we can hang next week" I sent him what I felt the appropriate response of "if you want to, you know how to get ahold of me"

Just so there is no confusion, I got that he wasn't into me after point number one when he didn't answer because he was "eating". Some girls would see this random texting as "he must like me". But I do believe that he is stringing me along just in case he gets bored or can't find anything better (like that shit will happen ;P). But Inga is no dummy, I know the ugly truth of the situation. And it is that, like it or not, he's just not that into me.